Phil, didn't know Bout your Dad, sorry to hear this. Hopefully he didn't suffer.
Wade I already sent you my condolences once and I'm doing it again. So sorry for your lost but you know he is much happier., things where not going well for your Dad.
Its a tough road to ride for sure. I lost my dad and mom 5 years ago. I still think of them everyday, those memories have kept them alive for me.
I hope you have fond and everlasting memories of your dad. It will help ease the discomfort you are feeling..
It will get better.
God bless your hearts. My biggest nightmare as a child was knowing that someday I would lose my parents!! The days came for both and it is sooooo hard. My prayers got out to you both. I believe in the promise !! I will see them again!! I can only hope and pray that you do to!! It gets you through!